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I wrote this for two reasons:
To clarify my own thoughts (which is ridiculously hard I tell you. You think you know what you think until you need to write it down).
Entertainment value. I love reading about how other people see the world.
The beauty of Life is that it’s inherently mysterious and no one really knows what it is. Fun!
I went through a period of destabilization in the last 6 months - I reached a point where I learned so many psychological and spiritual ways of looking/understanding the World that it made me overwhelmed and confused. I asked myself what is true? what should I do? how do I proceed? I was stuck and could not take action because if everything was true, nothing was true.
The saying that we’re spiritual beings having a human experience is true in my world. But not in a way that most people relate to, which is some Greater Force (God, Universe) put a part of itself in human form.
I am consciousness as can easily be verified through meditation and from a first-person experience, the world is appearing within me. So the same energy that’s infused in plants, the sky, and other people is within me too. Michael Singer talks about it a lot in The Surrender Experiment and it resonates.
The bottom line in the spiritual realm for me is that there’s more than meets the eye. I remember very clearly since I was little, looking at the world knowing that it isn’t what it appears to be. The material world is a curtain that hides the backstage and the spiritual path is having the courage to peek behind the curtain.
Manifestation, the universe, crystals, divine guidance, everything happens for a reason… the lingo of modern religion.
The mind has an effect on the matter but it’s too metaphysical for me to get into here. The problem with the mind though is that is full of garbage we picked up from our childhood, society, and culture. Sometimes the things that mask what we want, are what we were taught to want aka it’s not authentic desire.
Take capitalism. Unfortunately, it’s built on “stronger” takes from the weak (we still exploit 3rd world countries by mining cobalt, having our clothes made there, etc). Accumulation of capital is part of the game too and the more assets I have, the more assets I can have vs I’m poor and have to think about survival, not assets, so I continue being assetless and poor.
That doesn’t mean I love it though. I think traditional marketing and endless encouragement of consumption is fucking disgusting and I’m shocked people don’t see through that but I’m not naive enough to think I might change that. My interest lies in figuring out the game and then playing it in a way that my morals and values don’t get so compromised I can’t look myself in the eye.
I believe in the simulation theory in as much as it appears the most likely explanation to me. I don’t need to make sure it’s true. (I’ve another theory that there’s only one thing in the world that can be proven to be true which is I AM and everything else is a second-hand experience but I shall reserve that for another newsletter where I talk about how crazy I am 😉).
I used to think and say sometimes that there's no single truth and everyone has their own. But it was for either consoling myself that sb else disagreed with me or I didn't want to get into it with another person. Right now, I think that the Truth exists but it's not my truth. I don't need to know I've got the Truth to live my life. I take what works for me and move forward.